Hmm, like the majority of the DA community, I've been reading up a lot on the Otakon 08 drama circling *ramy and !ryo0oki. (that's her original DA account fyi) Although I wasn't there myself 8D;; And for some unknown reason I feel depressed instead of enjoying all these lulz.

It's not like I draw shiny anime desu! In fact, I haven't touched the dodge and burn tool ever since I graduated from high school. (which is like, 5 years ago? Yeah, in my earlier years I kinda abused those tools) But it's the fact that I consider my own style as more manga style than anything else I guess.

Actually earlier this week I've been having self doubts about my style as well. Like, I really love the semi-realism stuff or more concept art-ish stuff like *Michelle84's or *sandara's artworks. But I realized that I need to treat art seriously instead of treating it as a hobby in order to achieve that level. I also need to change majorly how I draw. But I had already decided long ago that I only want to treat my art as a hobby, instead of relying on it as a source of living. You can only have fun that way you know? So after agonizing over the issue for a while, I decided that I will just stick to manga style. I really don't have the time to seriously relearn the way I draw or spend an entire day sitting in front of the PC drawing XD;; *has low attention span* Not to mention my actual work has almost nothing to do with my manga art as well..;; And I don't really need to draw for it too...;; So no practice there...;;;

I don't know, I guess I just felt like I'm not good enough, although having been drawing for such a long while. I felt like I haven't improved at all. And looking at all these bashing on anime/manga style art lately, makes it worst I guess.

I'm just going through another period of hating-own-art phase I think. I'll get over it soon enough I hope >__>;; And perhaps I just need some ego stroke!! 8DDD LOL!!!!

Weeellll, on a not so depressed note. I've been playing WoW lately every weekend and trying to get my hunter to hit 70 by next weekend so I could go Karazhan with ~Chrystali!!! She's at 67 now, hopefully I could hit 69 in the weekend!! >.<;; Other than that, I've also been working/rushing to make 63 wedding card invitations by hand for my best friend ~likoliko's wedding in October!! LOOOOAAAADSSSSS of cutting and pasting left to do!! @_@ Hopefully I can complete them in the weekend and mail them out early next week too. Been busting my ass making these cards for like 2 weeks now!! This is how they look like!!! These cards are also one reason why I haven't been drawing lately, sorry T__T;; But I had been doing some sketching for a marker piece when I'm free at work, though the picture looks very generic animu... >___>;;; Which is why I am depressed about my style lately I guess, hahaha!!